Deep down we all look for acceptance and validation. We all have that one person in our life who we look up to. Someone who’s opinion matter to us. This can be a mentor, a teacher or a family member, we all have some one. But what if that person is no longer with us?
When I was growing up, my father was a strong figure in my life. I admired him. He was a truck driver, and as a young boy I wanted nothing more than to become a truck driver my self. This was obviously well before I fell in to the world of music. I had a pretty secure and comfortable childhood, but in 1994, as many of you on my mailing list know, my life took a turn of an epic proportion. I lost my father, who took his own life.
When you are hit with something like this, you know in an instant, your life will never be the same again. But as cruel as it felt at the time, life just keeps going. I picked my self up and as strange as it felt continued. Looking back now I am grateful of having music in my life, as it gave me focus when I needed to move on.
And of course with time I adjusted to the life without my father. But still from time to time you cannot help but to think, what would he think if he saw me today?
Once again I am sharing with you quite personal part of my life. But I am doing this in hopes that those of you who have lost that one person in their life know that you are not alone. You are not crazy wondering what they would think of you right now. I know we keep it inside of us, rather than share it, as we worry that others would not understand. This song is me telling you that I do understand, and that you should not worry what others think. Sometimes you just need to let it out.
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The author J.P. Kallio is a singer songwriter
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