Pendulum

Today I’m proud to share my 10th release of 2025: Pendulum.
This song arrived the same way many of my songs do, not so much through deliberate crafting, but as if I was simply the vehicle for something flowing through me. I often say that I don’t “write” songs so much as I catch them, and Pendulum was very much one of those songs.

It’s always strange trying to analyse something that feels like it came from somewhere deeper than logic, but if I step back and look at it honestly, Pendulum feels like a song about those last moments of a life.
That quiet space where time slows down.
Where it’s too late for regrets, too late for apologies, too late to tell the people you love how much they meant to you.
Not the end of everything, but the end of your experience in this lifetime.

A few years ago, I went through a long period of soul-searching, digging deep into old memories, beliefs, traumas, and all the layers we carry into adulthood without even realising it. Somewhere in that process, I made peace, as much as one can, with my own mortality. It doesn’t mean I’m not afraid of dying. It just means I’ve accepted its inevitability, and I’m trying to make the most of the time I have here.

Some people call that a “spiritual awakening.”
I’m not always convinced the term fits.
It doesn’t quite capture what it feels like to return to the foundations of your childhood and question every belief you’ve held until now.
But something shifted in me, and Pendulum feels connected to that shift, a reminder of impermanence, responsibility, forgiveness, and the strange beauty of letting go.

Here are the lyrics:

Pendulum — Lyrics

I watch the pendulum swing
Intuition doing its thing
Under the canapé on the porch
Listen to the sound as the rain falls

I hear a crow in the distance
And I ask for forgiveness
For all the things I have done
For all the people who are long gone

I watch myself from a distance
Everything slows down

I can see life flash right in front of my eyes
I can feel all the pain I caused in my time
How I wish I could go back and relive my life
Tell you all the things I kept inside

There’s a bright light above me
I guess now I’m kind of home free
I felt so cold not long ago
Now I feel nothing at all

Regrets I had are now all gone
Repress it all and move on
Every ghost I left behind
Has come to say goodbye

If the song resonates with you, I’d love to hear your thoughts.
You can listen to Pendulum here:
👉 Pendulum on Spotify

Thank you for following this journey. Every song feels like another step, and I’m grateful to have you here for it.

J.P.